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derailed. Been trying to cram everything that has been taught thus far into my brains for the past few days but I don't think it's been working too well. And I realise something. I am emotionally-handicapped. I cannot reciprocate lovey-dovey feelings, I cannot love anybody but myself and I have serious commitment problems. Whoever gets involved with me is a right unlucky, stupid, doomed bastard. Yep. I think I need to see a psychiatrist, figure out why I can't figure out my own problems, why I believe that I'm cold and frigid inside. And it's times like these that I wish I weren't who I am. Just so I could prevent myself from hurting other people. This, however, is definitely not the time to immerse myself in such thoughts. I need to focus. I need at least a D in all my subjects. I need to study. I'm having my General Paper paper this Friday morning at 8.10 a.m. I wonder why they don't schedule it at 8 a.m. like they do in secondary schools. I cut my double-period GP classes yesterday. I figured, what the fuck is the point? I go, I don't go, I still get the same grade. I still get an A. It's not like I'm failing. I'd skip school altogether but I need to go for Economics classes, unfortunately. I think there's something I probably need to address but I don't feel like doing it now. I passed my Econs test, a 65%. Wahoo. I don't seem to feel very ecstatic about it.
before sunrise // before sunset
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