can't think of one even after sitting here for ten minutes trying to think up one freaking title
written: 6:11 p.m. on Saturday, Jan. 03, 2004

1. I'm getting the boring guy for Econs. Fuck! Even though the teacher whom I got last year was quite a bitch and very unapproachable, she instills enough fear in me to instigate me to do my tutorials (well, sometimes) and bring my ten year series, AND she's so good that I actually understood her explanations. I relied a lot on tutorials last year to get me the bloody B in the subject for the promos and now I'm getting some boring guy, and since Econs is a constant it won't get interesting anytime between now and many many oeons later, which basically means that I'M SCREWED. I'd be sleeping in lectures AND tutorials. How how how!

2. Maths classes are now combined which means I have to fight for the tutor's attention with TWENTY-TWO OTHER PEOPLE. (My class used to be split up into two classes for maths and econs, you see.) To make things worse, I'm not getting last year's teacher! MATHS SUCKS and I NEED TUITION. Anyone wants to teach me for free? (Yeah right.)

3. I apparently end classes every day at 4.30 but because I haven't seen the timetable yet, I can't confirm that. Just in case it's true, let me complain now: WHAT THE FUCK!

Yep, that's about it.

Today I went to school to help out in some OGL business. I made some paper balls -- big ones -- and cut some cloth up into strips. It was boring. Mel didn't go, predictably, and I wasn't in a very sociable mood and I was fucking sleepy so I didn't really talk much.

Also, there's nothing in my head that I wanted and want to say to them anyway. They're all nice people but I can't seem to find even the weakest of common ground upon which some semblance to true friendship can be built.

Or maybe I'm just picky. I don't know. All I know is, I hate attempting to socialise and it would be a lot better if people just leave me alone.

To make matters worse, my Discman died without me knowing so I brought it, brought my CD holder and tried listening to Jielun's 4th LP but no sound came out. Isn't that awesome.

(Note to self: MUST. WRITE. COMMONWEALTH. ESSAY.)

What I really want right now: The Panasonic handphone that Jielun advertises for. I don't know what the model name is, don't really care; I expect phone retailers or whatever to KNOW what I'm talking about if I ever have enough dough to stride into one, go up to the counter, and go, "Oi, I want the Zhou Jielun/Jay Chou handphone." "Which one?" they would ask. "The later one," I would say, and they would know what I'm talking about and sell it to me. Why do I want it? Because he advertises for it. Yes, I'm going back to being a teenybopper again, thank you very much.

What I really need right now: An entire lifetime of having nothing to do but write to my heart's content. And that excludes writer's block.

After spending an hour and a half in school making balls and such I went to Funan the IT mall to get a router and some wireless thingy with my mom to hook up her PC with Internet connection, and after an afternoon spent on installing the thing, it's worked! Wahoo! Now I can download live Jielun songs and burn them onto CDs!!!

Oh, I'm so excited.

Okay, I didn't install the thing; my brother did while I played Spider Solitaire and listened to Jielun sing straight to me. I did help at one point of time, but couldn't figure out whatever I was supposed to figure out and got real damn pissed off and started showing my chao mug and threw the manual back at my bro and gave it up.

Yeah, I'm short-tempered like that. Hate it when things don't go the way I want them to.

before sunrise // before sunset

Previously:
- - Tuesday, Aug. 29, 2017
I'm moving. - Sunday, Jul. 11, 2010
In all honesty - Tuesday, Jul. 06, 2010
What I want for my birthday... - Sunday, Jul. 04, 2010
On Roger's behalf. - Friday, Jul. 02, 2010