Fucking hell can't download shit.
written: 11:30 p.m. on Tuesday, Sept. 30, 2008

I am incredibly pissed off for many reasons. This is the only one that I can and am willing to talk about:

I can't download shit from Megaupload anymore. Whatever I try downloading stops at a certain point and doesn't continue, and because Megaupload doesn't allow free downloads to resume their downloads (unless you install their stupid spyware toolbar which of course I won't do), I'm basically wasting a bunch of time and electricity trying to download files that don't end up downloading.

Ever since my mom's Internet fucked up and I resolved it for her after calling StarHub, I've been having this stupid issue. Before that, all my downloads went fine. They were slow, but they finished, I got my matches, I was happy. But now? I've been trying to download the first set of the 2003 Wimbledon final and the 2007 Hamburg Masters Cup final but every single time the download stops and dies.

I am so pissed off. My mom refuses to let me use her computer because she uses it for work, and I can't connect directly to the network because my mom's computer is connected to the cable modem. I'd use torrent, but the free-for-all tennis torrents are very, very limited, and the one match that constantly appears is this year's Wimbledon final which I refuse to watch. The matches I want are not available on mininova etc. I'd sign up at tennis torrent sites but I don't want to seed anything and they'll kick me out for not seeding.

My only alternative? Buy bootlegs. And I'm seriously considering it. I probably would anyway, since there are many, many matches that I want but aren't available online for download (like the 2007 Shanghai Masters Cup final against Ferrer). But it's damn expensive and I'd rather minimise my cost by getting matches for free wherever I can...which, apparently, I can't do anymore.

I truly do have a bit of a temper, and that's probably the biggest understatement of the year. I also obsess over how to make things go my way when I'm not getting what I want. I'm not getting my Federer matches, I'm damn pissed off as a result, and I can't do anything else. I'm so irritated.

On the bright side, I've vowed to stop watching the matches that I do have (two left, dammit, and they're both against Roddick. I'm so sick of watching him thrash Roddick) because they really do take up a lot of time, and I don't have a lot of time left as it is.

This should bring me to my next point, another reason I'm incredibly pissed off, but I don't want to talk about it.

I don't want to talk about a lot of things lately - hence the tennis posts, the TV shows posts, UN posts, whatever. This online journal is getting so impersonal that I don't know why I bother anymore. And it's not so much because there are too many people reading; it's because the people that read it are the people I know.

Maybe I should lock this shit. But then, c'mon. I'm too much of an attention whore to ever do that.

***

Since we're getting impersonal anyway, I might as well ramble about Federer v Nadal, Shanghai 2007 TMC semi-final.

I feel so cheated. Nadal couldn't have been playing at his best; if that was his best, then it means Roger's tennis sucks for losing to Nadal as often as he does. The second set was a complete joke; Nadal almost got bageled but in the end got on the scoreboard with one game (his own service game, naturally). This can't be the Nadal that Roger loses to because Roger's win was way too easy and it wasn't like Roger was playing at his 100% anyway.

I know I should just watch the 2008 Wimbledon final to see the rivalry for what it is but no, it breaks my heart just thinking about it. Until Roger reclaims what's rightfully his (I'm hoping next year), I'm not going anywhere near that match.

Also, I suddenly really want to watch this year's US Open quarter between Roddick and Nole. I watched a bit of it on TV, but I like watching my tennis from the first game to match point. I'm anal when it comes to tennis, too, and I hate spoilers as well.

But yeah, I can't download shit anymore. FUCK FUCK FUCK. And I'm not buying non-Federer matches.

before sunrise // before sunset


Previously:
- - Tuesday, Aug. 29, 2017
I'm moving. - Sunday, Jul. 11, 2010
In all honesty - Tuesday, Jul. 06, 2010
What I want for my birthday... - Sunday, Jul. 04, 2010
On Roger's behalf. - Friday, Jul. 02, 2010