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I think I thought I saw you try. Losing My Religion Oh, life is bigger That's me in the corner I thought that I heard you laughing Every whisper Consider this I thought that I heard you laughing That was just a dream I thought that I heard you laughing You don't realise how gut-wrenching and honest these lyrics are until they suddenly speak to you, completely out of the blue, when you least expect it, especially when you listen to it quite infrequently, if at all. That, at least, is one thing to counteract and neutralise the memories that aren't ever, ever going to go away, no matter how much I wish they'd stop haunting me, once and for all. I try not to feel vitriolic towards you, but it's hard not to when I find myself walking home hugging myself tight, fighting back tears, when I shouldn't even anymore. You're the undertow of a deceptively innocuous wave that pulls me in against my will, and I'm rooted to the spot, trying not to get swept away, and I can't leave. It's probably going to take every last ounce of fight that I still have in me to get rid of you - but I will do it. And I will do it by myself. And I will do it. Because you're not worth hurting over. Not anymore. Not ever. *** In more pleasant tennis news, oh my god, Tsonga reached the final. He's facing Nalbandian. I MUST WATCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
before sunrise // before sunset
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