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adrenaline keeps me up inside I didn't remember what they talked about. So I penned my own novel, and wrote that they were there to dissuade Atticus from defending Tom, which is wrong. They were there to voice their concerns about the possibility of a lynch mob, but of course I have to forget. Of all the things I screw up, I screw up Lit! Thankfully, it was only that part that was glaringly wrong, but then, it wasn't like I totally shone and glimmered for Julius Caesar or prose or the TKAM essay anyway. I had an entire essay in my mind when it came to the unseen prose, but I ran out of time so I ended it abruptly. School is a vicious cycle, it is, and I'm trapped in it, but strangely, I don't care all that much. I realised my mistake on the MRT while reading that chapter again, and in my mind, I went, "Oh shit", but that was it. Ordinarily I would've started cursing at myself and at my stupidity, but not today. I was at peace with myself enough to sleep. I had another disjointed dream last night and Gen appeared in it. My dad had to go to Taiwan for a week, and my family went to the airport to send him off. Before he left we sat at a bar-restaurant type place and ordered stuff to eat. The lights were dim, making the place almost pitch-black, and it was illuminated with a bluish glow, like a dance club (though I don't know how a club looks like). We sat at the bar top and chatted a bit. Now, the thing is, I knew that Gen was there. Maybe it was intuition, or maybe I simply knew where he earned a living, but I just knew anyway. And then he was walking past me, not looking at me but I knew that he knew that I was there, and that was enough. But the most amazing part is the sheer amount of pure electricity that was in the air between us, almost enough to set the place on fire. I had probably a million butterflies in my stomach, all fighting to escape. And that was it, that was the only part he was in. We didn't talk to each other and we didn't look at each other, but it was still as if we were close, physically and otherwise, as if the electricity between us would never be conducted away, no matter what.
before sunrise // before sunset
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