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surely i can't be depressed I could've avoided being with myself and went with my classmates instead, but no, I just had to push them away. What good did I get out of walking alone? Nothing. I simply got more and more useless thoughts that made me feel like the biggest jerk in the world. I don't want to talk about it, the thing that I have to do, that is making me feel the way I've been feeling the entire day. I don't want to think about it, but I can't help myself. And I'd be lying if I said I want company. I'd be lying too if I said I didn't. Going to the class thing made me realise I don't fit in. It's easy to pretend, but I gotta face it. I don't fit in. My friends rock but I need something more. I need something I can hold on to, that is tangible, that won't cop out on me when I need it most. I don't know what it is. It doesn't really matter. I'd never find it anyway.
before sunrise // before sunset
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