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the lonelinest number
this quiz by orsa How interesting. *** Football match between my school and Victoria JC was boring. Football in itself is boring. So Mel and I left a few minutes before halftime, just after we conceded a goal. Why do I have the feeling that we lost the match? Why do I not care at all? Why do I have this sudden repulsive feeling for jocks, especially cagers? Blah. ** It's tempting to sink into some crappy self-pitying mode... make the rejection a bigger deal than it really is... but no. I won't degrade myself to that level. I did see him in the canteen this morning... which goes to show how shitty luck is to me, not just sometimes, but all the time. When I wanted him there he was never there. When I didn't want him there he decides to park himself directly in my line of sight. A few positive things that arised from this amazing farce: It's made me appreciate the two close girlfriends that I have, Mel and Sakurai. It's wonderful how they just rally around you in such stupid times. Mel's verdict on the cager was basically this: "That fucking bastard!" Sakurai drew me a chibi version of my darling Mitsui and wrote, "Ouchie! He sucks anyway!" Haha. Whatever. I'll get over this. I guess it just hurts, that's all. ** Going for movie marathon in a couple of hours' time. Yay. I really like touching The New Kid's hair... it's really soft and wonderful. And of course, he hates it when I do that which gives me the more reason to do it. ** I write a lot better in my personal diary. This is just crap. Fuck, who cares.
before sunrise // before sunset
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