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puddles of watery rainbow Unfortunately, I screwed up my presentation immensely today. I didn't even finish doing the powerpoint. And I lost my diskette. And I forgot to save it in C drive. Which means if she chooses me, I'd need to do it all over again. I'm quite ambivalent about whether or not I want to be chosen. Being chosen means two things: 1. Forcing myself to present my shit in front of a huge audience and embarrassing myself when my brains cop out on me mid-sentence and leaves my mouth with, "Uh... yeah." 2. Bonus marks. I got a 66% for my project because I fucked up my overviews; didn't know what was actually required. And a 66% is only a C. I want an A. This thing is 50% of my entire CA grade for Lit and I have already failed a test. So if I get 9 more marks I'd get an A. If I'm chosen I'd get more than 9 bonus marks. I got an A for the essay, by the way. 49/60. Still not good enough... I'd be over the moon to get over 55. Anyway, I haven't done my History essay. Teacher said she's going to send those who miss the dateline to detention. I find that extraordinarily intriguing because I've never served detention before and I'd love to try, but unfortunately, I have a bloody Othello test on Monday so I guess I wouldn't be experiencing detention anytime soon. Oh, who really cares. The important thing is, something rather major happened last night involving The New Kid and myself. We're going out tomorrow. I spent the whole of yesterday feeling so down and hurt and depressed and terrible for nothing. He could've just told me that he has feelings for me when I told him everything after GP class. (Kinda left out the bit about me being jealous though.) Sometimes I think he's so cute. Other times I just want to strangle him. And I love it when he puts on that pissed off, tough guy mug. It's like... haha. I don't know. I feel a lot better, of course. I kind of felt that he treated me differently in school though. He was more reserved than usual and didn't really tease me that much. I like walking with him. I like the height difference. And he can palm a basketball. His hands are so much bigger than mine. Still, I am me. Ever the bitter, jaded cynic. And so I'm just waiting for something to go wrong.
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